I haven't been to church for a fair while. Since December actually.

It seemed like I couldn't fit in there. Oh I had a few friends etc but I always felt like if they knew my whole self they would disown me :))

Well ... I've tried the 'outside' bit and right at this moment I know that I need church. The way folk treat each other outside of church is frickin awful. And the things they justify is appalling.

Don't get me wrong - I'm just as bad.

My way of handling things = "Oh FFS you nasty piece of work" *arguing*

I should turn to God and ask for his help. Pray that he will calm my heart, calm my anger. I've always known it goes better his way.

Chill out. I can usually see both sides of the argument and feel for both but I'm starting to lose that.

Recently my anger over some situations is over-running. If I don't turn to God it will overspill in a big way and cause problems.

At least in a church setting you can spiritually release people from the bonds they've wrapped themselves and others in. And they accept that that is what it is.

I so want to close comments as I'm sick of being attacked. I've never evangelised but folk who accuse me of it have. *sigh*

We're all learning, eh?