Feel sad.

Why It's A Nightmare That I Wish Would Go Away

If S didn't go into care she could have been badly hurt, or worse.

If S didn't go into care F might have stayed with her mum and not been horrifically abused and most likely scarred for life.

Selfishly, all I can think of now that it's over is ... why me?

Consta-guilt.

Not the most pleasant of experiences, and I've had to deal with two of them recently. I did well, even if I say so myself. Explained what happened to a RL friend and she immediately understood. I did good 

Stronger than I seem? Or protected 

I expect more. It happens.

You, who love life.
It's never been fair.
Why is your time cut short?
While I'm still here.

My heart's not in it now.

*draws smiley face on*

There's no fool like an old fool.

That's me, that is.

Struggling

Yes, again

No, it's nothing I've read today. Shush! Yer worse than me.

It's a feeling I've had for a while. This place really isn't any good for me.

I feel so hated. It's no doubt the life trouble there's been today that's colouring it, exaggerating how I look at it.

*suffocating*

Still struggling, treading water or whatever. Dunno why I'm here any more. Habit?

Out of sorts. Not myself. Other such bollocks. The crying appears now and then, becomes almost like a pastime in itself.

People talk to me and I think - why? Is this habit? Does it make you feel better?  Conversing feels wrong. Like a lie. Emptiness. Is this what it feels like to be stripped of character? Nothingness. I don't know who I am.